self/image, trans/image
A continuous sympoietic journal of selfies, drag, and reflections.
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Q: So, what is it, Luka Prinčič or Prince Lucija? Who are you?
A: I am both, I think. While one would think, judging from my activities as a performer (in sound, music, and stage), Prince Lucija is just a 'performing' persona, an artistic alias, I believe it's not. I'm interested in a personal lived experience that is "not male", and is most often, when it comes up, femme. This is further complicated with the view that "gender is performed in daily life" (J. Butler). One can also lean into Jung's "anima" (in an AMAB), or Deleuze's becoming-woman (see also E. Grosz). And these frameworks of thought (and feeling, or affect) afford a space to also consider gender both a spectrum and an identity in-becoming: dynamic, sometimes even fluid, or ambiguous, sometimes about asexual, platonic, and even aromantic interaction, sometimes the opposite: sexual, fetishistic, romantic, erotic, and embodied. I guess there is (almost) nothing essentially biologic about identity, it is very much cultural and environmental phenomenon that is imprinted into our beings. These (we) are then struggling with seemingly static "properties" of our selves when the fact seems to be quite the opposite.
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240412
On discovery of... fear of narcissism.
The question remains, why... a strong self-censoring moment at the occasion of self-perception that arouses something akin to erotism?
"[...T]he image is flesh of the world. It can never be fully contained."
- Amelia Jones, SELF/IMAGE
Adoration of a woman on a photo/image.
Struggling with feelings pulling back,
forbiding the self-adoration,
as an immoral act.
Narcissism is characterized by a grandiose sense of self-importance, a lack of empathy for others, a need for excessive admiration, and the belief that one is unique and deserving of special treatment.
Excitement when addressed with female pronouns. Why.
(edited 241110)
